moved n broken in a time...

tarikh: 7 SEPTEMBER 2009
masa: 6.20 a.m

I had moved to Cyberjaya recently..i got a job here in cyber at Prestariang located at NeoCyber..what i'm going to tell u guys here is about something that just happen recently..again my heart is broken..it started when i willing to follow my new-friends to an event. there we get socialize..and the reason for me to come is also to make friends with them..but its totally wont work out..i am depressed..it is shoo wasting my time..there..i realized something is gonna happen..but i just thought it wont make sense..i am wrong in some point..

For a week i had stayed in here.I had made some friends..such a little friends..but its okay,since it's just only a week.i was shoo depressed working with this people as i thought that i dont deserved the position.i didnt do much talking as i loved to do.for most of the time, i became a quiet little sober person..i am crying out loud deep inside me..arghh!!why should i stay here and live life like a fool with no friends to talk like hell,no friends to gossip..aish..i am nearly give up..

Most of the staff in my office didnt look like likes me.hurmm..maybe i was thinking shoo much..i had a sense that they cant believed that i can get shoo easily entered that company with my so-so-ability..hurmm..i didnt asked for them to choose for the first place..i am really curious to know why they choose me for the first place..is it that i am good or is it because on the day of the interview,i had bragged too much..hurmm..i just need to know the reason..

Then, life is good when someone approach to make friends with me..it is good to know him..he's kind of nice that i can fall in love with him..okay!i am easily can fall in love with everyone..just of because him being shoo nice,i will easily being attracted.we had a lots of talk..sometimes it was more to rubbish talk..but we had fun..as far as i know we were..i admitted that i am moved by his action.i thought i finally got someone special here to make him as my best-guy-friend.but i'm totally wrong..This morning..without fight or something,he just told me that he will never disturb me again as he thought that i didnt like to be disturb by him..okay..i make a joke before of him taught me sleep late at night and i always got up late in the other morning..but it was really a joke!he can take it before..why not now??we always have this kind of teasing moment..i didnt know that he will take that seriously..

But..what more can i do aite..as he said it..i can just let it be..if he had think like that,then its okay.maybe we just dont meant to be friends..maybe it is a fate that we were destined to be friends for only 4 days long.lots of maybe..i was really hurt at this moment..for some point,i didnt trust guys nemore..they just belong to not getting my trusts~and i have to be strong for being hurt by others.till when?hurmm..time will tell..for some point..i must admitted that i had such a nice day when we had these talk..but seems that we will not have that talk nemore...

Goodbye dear short-time-friend~
Thanks for the moment we had shared together..
Thanks for encouraging me and listening for my crap talk..
I miss you shoooo much and i will always do dear friend...

mY hEaRt wAs oNce mOVEs bY u~ (pARt II)

Song title: Qi Shi Ni Dong Wo (That You Do Understand Me)
Artist: Joe Chen Qiao En (That You Do Understand Me)
OST: Ying Ye 3+1 (Taiwan Drama)
Link: http://www.imeem.com/people/vX9Eg6a/playlist/lH838YQ2/songofmylife-music-playlist/

Wo dao di shi shei
Zai ni xin zhong zhan you zen yang de di wei
Ni bu shuo qing chu
Ni rang wo men de ai zhui zai qi li wu

Ai hen tao yan
Zong shi hu jin you hu yuan de rang ren zhui
Zhui ban tian
Ni lian bao qian
yi ju bao qian ye bu gei

* wo xiang qian zou
di zhe tou
Yan lei bu ting xiang hou liu
Yi zhi zou
bu hui tou
Xi wang ni hui zhao dao wo
Dan shi shi zhong bu ru yuan
Xi wang dou luo kong
Wo reng xiang xin
Qi shi ni dong wo (qi shi ni ai wo)

Wo fa shi qian bian
Wo zhe yi zou ni jiu wu fa wan hui
Sui ran xin hui tong
Zong bi shou jin wei qu hai yao geng hao guo

Wo deng le deng
Nao hai shi zhong fu xian ni dui wo de hao
Hao ban tian ni lian Babe
Yi ju an wei ye bu gei

(Repeat *)

Yi qian yi hou
Ni gen zai wo de bei hou chen mo
YehYehYeh
Qian qian hou hou
Xi wang ni wo zhu wo de shou
YehYehYehWo... Wo... Wo...

Wo xiang qian zou
tai qi tou
Ca diao yan lei xiang qian zou
Yi zhi zou bu hui tou
Xiang xin ni hui zhao dao wo
Meng li xun ta qian bai bian
Xi wang dou shi xian
Wo bu xiang zou
Wu fa xin bu dong

** wo xiang qian zou
tai qi tou
Ca diao yan lei xiang qian zou
Yi zhi zou
bu hui tou
Xiang xin ni hui zhao dao wo
Meng li xun ta qian bai bian
Xi wang dou shi xian
Wo reng xiang xin
Qi shi ni dong wo

(Repeat **)

mY hEaRt wAs oNce mOVEs bY u~

tarikh: 13 OGOS 2009
masa: 2.49 a.m

Harini..as usual wasting time in front of my precious lappy.. =) misi hari ni, tgk Ying Ye 3+1 drama smpai habis walau ape pon yg terjadi.Drama ni betol2 membuat sy cukup terharu.Plot dan konflik cerita sgt biasa.Tp yg mengagumi sy bile menyaksikan pengorbanan yg dibuat oleh kedua-dua hero dan heroin. Tidak dpt dinafikan drama ini kadang kala buat sy rs bosan. Hero drama ni adalah Ming Dao. Sy amat meminati lakonan Ming Dao dlm drama ni. Die digambarkn sebagai seorang pelajar yg otai tp sebenarnyer mmpunyai sikap yg baik, setia dan amat menyayangi keluarganya. The best part is that everytime i looked at him, i will think of someone who had almost the same character as someone i know before..Sy pernah menyayanginya sepenuh hati sy dan cube mnjadi yg terbaik tp mungkin sy masih xcukup baik utk diri die. Berbalik kpd cerita, Ah Jiang (hero drama, Ming Dao) jatuh cinta with his childhood friend, Xia Tian (name sbnr: Joe Chen Qiao En). Ketulusan AJ menyayangi XT amat sy kagumi. Semuanya bermula apabila saat syg br sj nk berputik dlm hati mereka dan ketika itu berlaku kejadian yg xdiingini. XT dijadikan tebusan oleh seorang penjenayah yg sgt dikehendaki polis. AJ sgt takut dia akan kehilangan org yg dia sgt syg, XT. Sebelum itu, XT mendesak supaya AJ memberitahunya samaada dia menyukai XT atau tidak. AJ berjanji utk memberitahu perasaannya terhadap XT nanti. XT beritahu yg dia takut dia xsempat dgr AJ meluahkn perasaannya terhadap dia. Kalau sesuatu berlaku, mgkin dia akan kehilangan peluang itu selama-lamanya. AJ tetap berkeras utk beritahunya nanti. This is because he want to make his confession something that XT will never forget till the end. Malang tidak berbau, ketika AJ mahu menyelamatkn XT dr penjenayah itu, dia terkena tembakan dan mengalami kecederaan parah. Malah dia juga xsmpat beritahu XT yg dia amat menyukai XT. Kesedihan cerita ini xhabis di situ sahaja. Doktor mengesahkn yg AJ mempunyai harapan yg tipis utk hidup. Roh AJ sgt menyesal kerana dia xsmpat melihat sendiri reaksi kekasihnya ms die melafaskn perkataan cinta. But a miracle happen. AJ sedar dr koma.

Sejak dr itu, dia berjanji tidak akan sia-siakn perasaan XT. Mereka hidup bahagia sehinggalah tiba-tiba muncul seorang lelaki yg pernah hadir dlm hidup XT sewaktu kecil dulu, Ding Kai (aka DK)..DK's appearance gave a big obstruct to both of them. DK berniat utk merampas XT dr AJ. Rancangan DK berjaya membuat AJ serba salah utk menyayangi XT. Dia sedar dia tidak mampu utk memberi kemewahan kepada XT. A graduation party will be held soon. AJ masih lg cuba utk mmberi yg terbaik utk XT. Pelbagai perkara berlaku sehinggakan mmbuat AJ semakin putus asa. Pengorbanan yg AJ tunjukkan sgt mengagumi sy. Apetah lg die betul2 mengingatkn sy terhadap sesorang. Tp malangnya lelaki spt AJ semakin pupus di muka bumi ni. Sy xhenti-henti menangis melihat pengorbanan yg AJ buat utk kekasihnya. Dia sangat melindungi kekasihnya dan tidak suka melihat sesiapa cuba menyakiti XT. Dengan pelbagai dugaan yg AJ lalui, dia ambil keputusan utk mengundur diri yg sy sifatkn sbg seorang yg gentle walaupun pd dasarnya org akan ckp dia adalah seorang pengecut. Tp hakikatnya keputusan yg diambil adalah demi kebaikan XT sendiri. In reality if something like this happen people will blame the boy since he make he looks like he cannot bear taking all the burdens to him. But actually all the decision he made is acceptable because he got a good reason. Who knows the reality will understand. Lakonan betul2 menjadi. I adores AJ shoo much..and if i have the chance to share my love life with this kind of guy, i promise myself that i will not make him regret for choosing me. And I really wish i will this type of guy some day. Pray for me.. =) A confession I make after this is the most embarassing!!ahaha~ i cannot believe that because of my compassion towards this drama, i am still crying..plus this one song really lure my heart out..and I can burst into tears everytime the melody playing in my mind.. :((

masih ada lg kah lelaki begini wujud di dunia ni??
insan yg melindungi kekasih hatinya sepenuh hati dan menyayanginya lebih dr segala-galanya..
haruskah aku percaya pada cinta lg??
masih wujudke cinta sejati??

oNE niTE staNd

tarikh: 5 APRIL 2009
tempat: undefined~
masa: 7.30pm

Wake up late that day as we slept at 8 in the morning.And my groupmates struggle hard just to finished our assignment for the coming UAT (unit automation testing).since we woke up late,we'd miss the lunch and have to wait for dinner to fill our empty stomach.it took a long time to get for dinner,so i opened my cereals (honeystars) to eat along with low-fat milk.for a little while,my stomach wont sang.thanks to cereals~that nite,we went looking for something to eat in DC (stand for dataran cendekia).

while waiting,suddenly rain fall.at first it looked fine and cold.but then it start to rain heavily + with storms and lightning which clearly seen in the cloud.we stucked there for almost 15 minutes and our stomach started whistling soundly.the rain triggered ours to feel shoo starving. suddenly,i got a text message from one of our classmate, Ghazal.he had invited me to go for a movie.Shocked and strange??but as we were all there,i invited my groupmates to come along.i felt shoo excited as we will go for a movie after going through a long-hectic weeks.but how can we go with weather like this.i dun know why i felt like i will do anything to go for that movie.eventhough,i not soo close with him.but its ok then.after all,we were classmates.and what i know,he'd asked yatie to go along too.so,we ran in the rain and the lightning.

when running to my college's gate,we had to cross the road.and something funny and excitement happen.pjart's paperbag torn!! and i think u can guess wut had happen aite??ahaha~all the things in that bag scattered.and those things include banana, her pegasus nike-shoes, vitamin something and etc.its good that the car willing to stop and wait for us to pick up all those valuable-things~lol!!~i had laughed while ran for haven.we had laughed continuously till we reached my room.ahaha~the most funny thing is why would she bring along that banana??!!!!this will definitely be our prank for the whole semester (not long last)!!ahaha~pjart~pjart~hehe.. done with that,we had rushed for changing our clothes.both of them went to ijat's room.and i'm here in my room,try to get myself dry.

we were soo muddled as the time shows 8.15 sharp.15 minutes later,those guys arrived and he texted me.why so hurry??i asked them to wait as none had showed their faces on the door.i felt worried for making the guys waiting.i realized it was my mistakes as i text ghazal to come at 8.30 becoz i thought we just have to head back to my room and change clothes.and i told the girls that they will come at 9.it was really my mistakes.bt nothing can changed aite.the girls wont take up my call..where were they??!!huhuhu~i felt shoo tense at that time.n finally when they answered,it was 8.35pm.

pjart come with her sour face.i felt shoo wrong bt rite now i have to push her to get herself ready quickly.it just that those guys had invited us,so its not good to make them waiting for us soo long aite.and i can feel that pjart was so piss towards me.i'm sorry but u still have to make it fast.we had a fight for that thing.eventhough i was wrong but i'm hoping that she will coorperate with me at that time.my effort to make it looks fine is soo wasted.i felt like getting angry but had to hold it back as i dont want cloudy the current state.hmm.. i left my room with untidy.my notebook was also left unshut along with the internet connection becoz i thought we will come back home later.so,let it be.rahim's car had waited in front of the gate.first thing we do is expressing our fully-apologize to them.and for a while the atmosphere was so stiffed.

our first stop was JJ Bukit Tinggi (as promised).they wanted to watch fast n furious movie but unfortunately the tickets all sold out.they tried to hurry to another mall.and we headed to Sunway Pyramid.


we stucked in a long-traffic.suddenly,i got a called from one of my roomates telling me that she had left her keys in the room.and she had asked to go back just to give her my key.i asked them to search for wardens' help bt she told me dat wardens' house was empty (by only looking at the light???!!duhh!!~).i tried to calm down and dun easily get mad.but the way she talked, doesnt looked like she was asking for my help but instead of telling me to go home and gave her my key.hello?!and her words was like blaming for her own mistakes.

urghh!!!she make me feel nerves!!xknla i had to asked Ghazal to turn back just for her to have that key.nonsense!!Luckily, Ghazal heard n he felt sorry n shoo kind to figure out something to help me out.we took federal highway and asked her to wait for us till we arrived at Petronas nearby.but without feeling sorry n patience,she had called and texted me thousand times asking me where was me at that time.OMG!!i really cant stand this!!i was seriously pissed off!!!n no patience covered my feelings that time.bile dah jmpe,i pulled my face to show her that i was really mad at her (plus supporting from da whole crew~).i can see her sorry face.but sorry gurl u crossed my patience's border!!rahim tried to amuse me but i have no feelings to laugh.huhu~kesian rahim.luckily they understand my situation.

Then,we headed to One Utama (3rd mall in a day!!).same things happen.sold out tickets!!!other choices of movie doesnt attract them.so,we just followed them and went tout and the guys thought they had a chance to watch the movie.unfortunately,the seat was shoo not as they hoped.if we take the seat,we had to separate as far as i understand.the guys dream wasnt answered.pity them.


the clock showed 12.and of course it was late to return for home.so,the guys suggested us to make a visit around kay el..ahaha~visit ker??hurmm..layannn~the first place to visit is a place with foooddd!!!i'm shoooo starvinggg!!da la xdpt mkn td since we all nk rush g bersiap.huhu~the guys brought us to damansara uptown to search for food~i ordered nasi goreng padprik.the gurls ate without complaining and the guys just drink.we talked while watching others singing on da stage.mcm2 sore dengar~pitching ke laut a weh!!!!huhuhu~people i'd seen there was guys for most table.and some of them was indonesian!how come malaysian wasnt there??mane2 pegi pon dorg jer??i felt like i've been throwing from my own country~hmm...they ruled our world in silence. then,we headed to The Curve near One Utama.


there i was given the oppurtunity to see with my own eyes how clubbing life was!~i felt shoo excited as one of my dreams before this come true..bkn ape..saje nk tgk..pgalaman.some says exciting, some says scary.and i was shoo curious to watch them by my own eyes.while sitting there watching all those people when in and out the club nearby,locating at The Street, we talked lots.i had asked about Rahim's gurlfriend, Yana.he told us his stories which really interest me alot!!!while talking,we saw one guy was sitting on the stairs and looked like dizzy.he tried to walk straight but of course he wont get that.he was drunk obviously!!how will u expect a drunk person to walk straight aite??!!wut really attract me to watch that guy is that he vomitted and he vomit it on the floor!!euwww!!!gross!!!!!coupled of pic here..

before going home,i had requested to look for a place where we can look da whole KL with light~then they first brought us ladies to dataran merdeka and we took a little walk.da road had been blocked and i can see people drunk, loafing, dating, sleeping homelessly, riders testing their engine cars soundly, lightning and silence a while.took a couple of pic..lets see..

finally,the boys brought us to Ampang went looking for KL's view from above the hill at night.waaa~my dreams had came true!!thanks u guys..n thanks gurls for accompanying me till here.view die sgt cantik!!but its too bad because sayer xbawak along my specs.so waste.huhu~we talked a lot.we talked about our past,our experienced in doing crazy things, ghost, our projects (FYP). its fun as we shared lots of things that nite.no shame and we talked like brotherly-friends.and mase on da way pulang tu,we had scared our ownself by mistakenly looked a leaf as a GHOST!!!lol~mase tue muke semua da pucat jer, hati toksah cakap la.mcm nk gugur jantung jer.tp at da same time,saye pandang je objek putih tu..betolke ianya daun rakan-rakan??? anda pasti??!!! waaa!!! takooooottt!!!!

pape pon i felt shoo lucky that day because most of my dream had came true.i had requested for Lorong Haji Taib but seems like its not suitable for me to go there.i guessed.its okay as long as we had filled our time with memorable things.lebih kurang pukul 6 kitorg pon pulang ke Shah Alam.before tu, sempat singgah dekat kedai mapley~me n pjat had no apetite. ijat and rahim just drink and ghazal the only one who was eating at that morning (tosai)..selepas itu.."journey to the center of KL" come to an end..arghh!! xmo balik!! want to make things like this again some time! really wish i can do!!huhuhu~

thanks to Rahim and Ghazal as being our safe-tour guide for the whole nite.
sy betol2 enjoy..no regrets at all.cume less photo to be kept..hanye memori yg tersimpul rapi..
insyaallah,if ade jodoh,kiter jejak genting same-same kay??!!

maJLis pRa-grAdUan

tarikh: 3 APRIL 2009
tempat: koLej mELati~
masa: 8.00mlm

Dinner MPG yang dinanti-nantikn sudah tiba..masing-masing sakan touch up sane touch up sini..sy dan pjat (bkn name sebenar) bertungkus lumus menyiapkn diri..kami semua berkumpul di bilik ijati~sume-sume look shooo beauty~even dah lambat,but still nak jalan dgn penoh gayenye..mase ni dah redha dah if tertinggal bus mmg nak naik teksi jer..lol~b4 naik bus sempat lg kene perli dgn pkcik bus sbb glamor sgt..jelesh betol pakcik tu (kate diriku)..since bus xjln2 lg..ape lg..pose time!~

Leka punye posing last baru realize x bawak kad jemputan.waaa!!!cemane nak masuk!!pakcik bus plak dah nak gerak dah.hati dah debor dah takut x dapat masuk.dgn ayunyer,sy pon berlari2 meminta pakcik bus tunggu kejap.malu toksah citerla.nasib pakcik sporting.if dpt yang cengeh (br belajar word tue) konpem x dilayan.huhu~lari punyer lari tetiber teringat plak kunci bilik kt ijati..mmg dah give up dah nak ambik..redha je..if dpt masuk,masukla..x dapat sudah..uhuhu~

tempat: hOtEL cOncordE~
masa: 8.15mlm

sesampai d lobi~hati mmg dah berdebar2 sgt ni.b4 tu sempat lg nak posing-posing.then time 4 red carpet.org sume dah berpusu2 masuk.kitorg masuk yg last skali.nasib kitorg reramai,so masa nak masuk tu die x perasan sgtla sy tiade tiket.thanks GOD!!masuk-masuk,org dah ramai dah dekat seat masing2.perasaan sgt gumbire and rase x sabar nak mkn.sbb dah lapar giler.huhu~segale berjalan dgn lancar.mcm biase, ucapan tidak dihiraukn.lol~kami sibuk dengan agenda sendiri.tgkap gmbar la,usha pujaan la.sambil diorg bg ucapan segale,kitorg reramai buat rombongan pergi toilet (konon~padahal saje je nak mkn angin~).someone dpt mencapai impian die untuk tangkap gmbar dgn pujaannyer.jeng3~siapekah??~ni la hasilnyer after mkn angin..

after mkn,sesi fotografi pule..inilah saat-saat yang dinanti-nantikan.semue org dah get ready dgn target masing2.lol~masing2 berusaha keras untuk berganding dgn pujaan masing-masing.kitorg mmg have fun giler..mcm-mcm aksi boleh tgk.aksi2 berasmara dana pon ade jugak tu..meh kiter usha..zass~

punyer la sakan bergambar,sampaikn kene tinggal bus.lantak la korg.tula.org da bagi warning dah suruh gerak ke bus skrg,tp memasing buat dunno jer.ni dah kene tggl,baru la nk meraung.padan muke!huhu~nasibla,ade org sudi hntarkn pulang (sudi ke atau die trpakse?mcm trpakse~).org yang saye cube try nk elak,yg hntar ktrg balik.hmm..utk mase tu,tankz a lot,tp lps nie,i hv no mercy for u.dlm2-dlm gembire tue..terselit juge perasaan sedih.mane x nyer,org yg sy anggap kwn,boleh keluarkn ayat tu??sy sungguh sedih.my sacrifice had no value~tp sy cube elak dr berfikir buruk n still terime die as my friend.mungkin die x berniat nk keluarkn ayat tu.xpela.sabar sy masih ade.alhamdulillah~ape2 pon, dinner tu mmg sronok..akan dikenang hingga akhir hayat~siape2 yg mahu lihat foto2 lain,bolehlah melawat facebook sy~nunite!!~ ♥

saye tidur pukul 7 pg semate2 nk gelak guling2 kt gmbar yg kitorg ambil nie..
ahaha~jnji nk buat keje,tp xjln pon.lol~